The Economics of Hating Your Job
Posted in I Rant by CujoApril 20th, 2006 - 1:20 PM
Well I decided I wanted to quit. Then I decided I can’t afford to quit. It’s at the point now where I simply hate the thought of coming to work in the morning. I try to find ways to delay me from getting here, heck today I even made the bed!
Now it’s not that I don’t like to work as I’ve been working and paying for things for quite some time. University comes to mind — that’s a large payment into something that is supposed to make your life better in the future. It’s just I don’t even have a desire to do the work here anymore. I’ve had my share of lousy jobs that I just pushed on through because I know I needed the money to pay for things (mainly university at the time) and I didn’t mind having to do them, basically none of them I despise more than here and I don’t know why.
Crappy Job #1: Cleaning of the sports bingo hall weekend mornings. I’d go into the hall starting at about 7:30 or 8 AM every weekend morning and clean the place from top to bottom. Wash the tables, clean the floors (mop/sweep) etc etc. This was still when smoking was permitted inside the building and it left a haze in the entire place. One stretch of table (about 30′ maybe) would turn the water black.
Crappy Job #2: Delivery person for “Another Bankrupt Courier”. I was one of two drivers in town for a courier company located in Sudbury. We had common runs we had to do then additional ones added on after the regular stuff was out. In charge of running the warehouse, off loading the truck, sorting the goods, loading the goods onto our cube vans and full size van, sorting the paper work then delivering. Near the end I even had to drive down the highway about 45 minutes to meet the transport there to do some deliveries on St. Joseph Island then rush back to town to offload the transport.
I worked the bingo job for a summer and the delivery job for close to a year (then Co-op kicked in at the University). Even though I hated the jobs I knew what I had to do and rolled with the flow.
This one is different. I want out. I need out. I think it’s because I know it’s not a career and after graduating with a degree I guess I was optimistic in thinking that I’d get a career and move on with the rest of my life from there. Unfortunately that’s not the case.
There’s a few little jobs popping up here and there that may or may not pan out but so far there’s no word on either front. Quitting which is my best option right now isn’t an option as I’m grown up and have bills to pay and all the other fun things.
So in other words I get to continue hating my job (I think it gets worst every day). The bad part about that is I hate the idea of the job here so I hate doing the work which in turn makes me not want to do the work which then makes me behind on work that I’m now catching up on but hate doing so I hate the job even more. Oh it’s such a vicious cycle.
A way out would be some “guaranteed contracts” on the web front but I would need two or three anyway and that would possibly cover me for a couple of months at best. But maybe in that time something else will come up.
So need a web site? How about some photography? How about a crazy guy to hang out with you (if you pay him of course)?
I just need out.
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April 20th, 2006 at 4:12 pm
I know where you are comming from. At Parks Canada I’m treated like the 16 year old co op student. I mean I’ve worked with the Royal Ontario Museum. As well I’m the only person here with a Historay degree, makes sense for a National Historic Site.
I feel your pain Curt, but atleast its not Sutherland.
Keep up the Good Fight
April 20th, 2006 at 8:39 pm
Damn, but do I ever feel your pain. You didn’t say it in your post, but it’s evident that you’ve been thinking it. Even so far south, as a city like Sudbury, our talents would not go wasted, and we’d sit like fat cats in our luxury $22/hour jobs, and buying outragiously priced frozen pizzas and import beer, all the while working from home, while watching the sattelite, which of course, is well within our budget…
I digress. That would mean leaving The Sault. Perish that crazy thought. It’s such a damn tug-of-war, though, isn’t it?
I, at least love my job… it’s just too little hours, with far, far too little pay. Anything better paying means stepping down from a job that I actually like and a foot in the door that may very well lead to greater things.
Anyway - I didn’t mean to rant, I’ve just been out of comminsion for a while, and figured I’d drop in. Here’s to things turning around for the likes of us. May The Force be with us all.
April 20th, 2006 at 8:45 pm
The Force IS with us. Let’s do this thing. Hell, I just got laid off, what have I got to lose? Cujo you wanna be in a TV show we haven’t made (or sold) yet? For free? Sure ya do.
April 20th, 2006 at 11:00 pm
Thanks for the comments guys and feel free to rant away. Heck, that’s the point of the “I Rant” category, I rant then you can rant. It’s like a fair trade agreement.
Moving down south would be the “easy out” supposedly with my degree as well as Jes’ we shouldn’t have troubles finding employment but we don’t want that. We like the north, we like the Sault, we like the wilderness and the ability to drive 20 minutes either direction and be at a beach, campsite etc. Plus we have a house now and a new arrival next week.
Hmm… TV show you say. I just may be up for that. I have stage acting experience and wouldn’t mind some fun here and there. Just need to figure out a schedule. Seems interesting.
April 21st, 2006 at 8:19 am
I don’t care if you have ANY acting experience - I’m a good director! LOL! We’re serious about this project. It’s been held up for so long, that it’s sometimes hard, even for me, to believe it will actually get made. But come hell or high water… !
We can’t schedule the shoot “quite” yet. The only thing holding things up for a summer shoot is the freaking camera. $2000. That’s it. We need a rich-ish uncle. Know anybody?
April 21st, 2006 at 9:16 am
HAHA. If I knew a rich uncle I’d have a sponsor for my ball team.
Count me in as of right now. If you need more actors let me know. I’m sure my comedic accomplice from a few years back would be up for it as well. If you need our credentials just ask Rabsteen I’m sure he can vouch for us.